You

Ughh. i seriously don't know what to do with you. I want you but i don't. The whole drop out thing is seriously holding me back. It's been 5 Years and your still here. Everyone tells me to give it a try once more cause it seems like you changed into a better person then before. I want to but i can't. I'm SCARED. Yeah, i miss you and kinda still love you. I mean i never really did stop. You were my FIRST love and you' will ALWAYS be. It's so hard for me to make my desicion. I'm sorry for being a big bitch to you. it's just i've been fucken over so many times and i'm tired of it. I'm tired of being nice, when people are just gonna walk all over me. I also hate it when you call me non stop. i mean i'm glad your checking up on me but seriously? you call me like 4 times every hour and it gets irritating. . But i LOVE how your no giving up. It shows that you truly do care. I just need time to think of what i'm gonna do.

Iao Valley

Today, i chose to go Iao Valley with my family but i should of gone Lahaina with the SKIMS. Blah so before we went to Iao, we had to go Costco and Kmart then pick up on of my aunties. So when we got there it was really boring all i did was eat and walk around. After we ate we went to the River and Oh man the water was hella COLD! like ice cold. Yeah after that we went home crashed for a while then got ready to go Rizalde's party. The party was funny i guess. Joseph, Reece, Rylan, Rachel Yanos, and other people. Man they had to play the Hip Hip Horay game and it was so funny. Well that's pretty much it haha. i'll blog tomorrow.



-Michelle

Dentist

So today i had to go to the dentist to get a root canal. It didn't hurt as much as i thought it would. Man i was drooling like crazy haha. After the dentist, my mother and i went to longs drugs to get the medicine the doctor gave me. Then we went home and get my brother and father then went to taco bell, then Old navy, then Office max, then Ross, then the mall. Man i'm so tired and my mouth hella hurts. Oh yeah i didn't blog yesterday right? so i didn't tell you that my dad gave me $50 for some odd reason. Whoop. MY TEETH HURTS like crazy. Tomorrow i either get to go Iao family with the Fam or go Lahaina with the SKIMS. Ughh i don't know what to do. Eww. well i'll blog tomorrow. Bye


- Michelle

Family Party

Yesterday was fun. I made a banana cream pie and it turned out good ^__^. Anyways yesterday night was a guess an early small family birthday party for my 2 cousins and my uncle. It was alot of random ass things that happened. Like There was random people there like a family that is never at their parties yahnoo?! So Random, Allen has a phone and he's like a 5th graders i think and he has a better phone then me LOLS. hmmm what else was random.............Ohh yeah how can i forget haha. This one guy was there. He was bonding with my grandpa and the rest of the family Weird o__O . <-- LMAO i tried making that after i typed it Retarded. What else... Blah i don't know it was just werid like seriously. Well anyway the food made my stomach sore like crazy. After we ate Kylie and Shaun kiddnapped me and took me to walmart for no apparent reason and after that we went office max. Then i went back to my grandma's house after, then went home. That's pretty much what happened that night. i'll talk later Bye.

-Michelle

Truth

I can't do this anymore. As much as i want to, i can't. I need to end this grief between us. Someone once told me "just cause you got hurt from someone you cared about, you shouldn't hold a grudge on them. Make things right now before it's too late. Your going to regret it when you get older." So i've decided. i'm gonna speak up. I NEED TOO! although i said that I hate you many times. i honesly don't, those are just words to show people how much you hurted me. That wasn't the first time you've hurted me but it was the first time i've felt fully betrayed. Have you ever thought about my feelings? You probably did by hiding things from me. Truth is hiding things and me finding bymyself is ay worse. It just sucks how someone that was your best friend would just do that to you. I'll talk to you one day and maybe will be friend just not like how use to be.

So the blog i wrote up there was written in June. So i finally decided to end the grief between us. Were friends, i guess but we never really talked about what happened and i know we should it's just i haven't found the right time. Ughhh.

-Michelle