You

Ughh. i seriously don't know what to do with you. I want you but i don't. The whole drop out thing is seriously holding me back. It's been 5 Years and your still here. Everyone tells me to give it a try once more cause it seems like you changed into a better person then before. I want to but i can't. I'm SCARED. Yeah, i miss you and kinda still love you. I mean i never really did stop. You were my FIRST love and you' will ALWAYS be. It's so hard for me to make my desicion. I'm sorry for being a big bitch to you. it's just i've been fucken over so many times and i'm tired of it. I'm tired of being nice, when people are just gonna walk all over me. I also hate it when you call me non stop. i mean i'm glad your checking up on me but seriously? you call me like 4 times every hour and it gets irritating. . But i LOVE how your no giving up. It shows that you truly do care. I just need time to think of what i'm gonna do.